I want to try for a Master's.. or do whatever it takes to put me in the position to pursue one...
and most of all I'm ready to get the body I always wanted. I cannot believe how I used to be... I tried so hard and got so ... well.. NOWHERE... I'd always gain it back. I still worry about purging. And sometimes I can just FEEELLL myself about to binge. I miss the emptiness I would feel after laxatives. I just know those things don't fit into the future i want to make for myself... thin, successful, AND HEALTHY!
I WAS gonna go try to find some new thinspo.. but its my bf's poker nite, so I'll have at least 4 hours to do that lol... so tomorrow will be some fresh pix... I really wish i could find more REAL BLACK GIRL thinspo... It seems all i can find is celebrity or model black thinspo.. i wanna see regular black girls... like me..
I'm going to NYC for a music festival labor day weekend and i want to be THINNNNN... I'm 108 as of last weigh in (before i got my period and got BLOATED LIKE A MUTHER) and I'm not sure if I'll weigh in this sat (depends if i'm over my "visitor" or not)... but I am shooting for 98 lbs!! Yes... I want to be 98 lbs by labor day weekend!
I'm really craving some knee high boots... and I'd love to be skinny enough to rock some with shorts at the festival!!
- B: banana
- S: 2 vegan/organic Late July cookies (110)
- S: apple
- L: WENDY'S ckn nuggets (230)
- S: So Delicious vegan coconut milk yogurt (140) + organic grapes and organic blueberries
- D: Chinese -- chicken with brocoli + pork fried rice (~600)
- S: 4 Newman's own dairy/wheat free cookies (260)
- TOTAL:: ~1340